Risha,
I'm so sorry.
I know my words hurt you. I never meant them to. But intention doesn't undo pain — and the pain I gave you is the one thing I would take back before anything else in my life.
Please read every word here. I wrote all of this only for you.
A letter to you, my Risha.
I've been sitting with what I said, and my chest hurts every time I think about it. Not because I'm sorry I got caught — but because I hurt you. You, the softest, kindest person in my world. You didn't deserve a single one of those words.
It was a mistake. A big one. I was careless with the one heart I promised to always protect. And I know saying "I didn't mean it" doesn't erase what you felt — but please believe me when I say it was never the truth of how I feel about you.
The truth is you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. My days are softer because of you. My nights are calmer because of you. Every good part of me got better the moment you walked into my life.
"If you're scared I'll leave — please don't be. I won't. Not today, not tomorrow, not ever. I will try forever for you, Risha."
Forever isn't a word. It's a choice I make every day.
- 01
I will never raise my voice or my words against you again. You are not the person to receive my worst — you are the person who deserves my best.
- 02
I will listen. Really listen. Even when it's hard, even when I'm wrong. Especially when I'm wrong.
- 03
I will choose you — loudly, quietly, in front of everyone, in every room, on every hard day.
- 04
I will never let you feel small, unseen, or unloved. Not for a second.
- 05
I will not leave. Not in a fight, not in silence, not in distance. I'm here. I'm staying.
- 06
I will love you for as long as you let me — and then a little longer, just in case.
Things I love about you, Risha.
(A tiny list. The real one wouldn't end.)
The way your eyes go soft when you're happy.
How you care — deeply, without keeping count.
Your laugh. God, your laugh.
How safe I feel just being near you.
The way you make ordinary days feel like something.
Your patience with me, even when I don't deserve it.
How your name feels like home in my mouth.
That you are you. That's the whole reason.
Will you forgive me, my love?
Take your time. I'll wait. And whenever you're ready — I'll be right here, exactly where I promised to be.